Awareness

Today I am aware of my emotions and how I respond to them.  I don’t always know what causes them but my involuntary response to most overwhelming emotions are tears.  I have also noticed that I do not always express what I want from others and then find myself upset even though I know people can’t read my mind.  

I am not an assertive person and worry about getting a negative response if I share my feelings or ask for what I want from others, but my logic is not generally rational.  I should be able to ask for what I want or share my feelings and if the other person is disagreeable that is ok, too.  This is something I need to work on.  

I see that I need to better express myself.

I am aware that my typical emotional response in overwhelming situations is to cry.

I notice that this is something I want to work on.

I feel that with work this is something I can improve upon.

It makes me feel hopeful to believe I can be more assertive with my needs and feelings.

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13 thoughts on “Awareness

  1. My involuntary response tends to be the silent treatment. Not just to the person that may have been the tipping point, but to the world. I have a dark place inside that overthinks everything, and when I’m upset I go there. But it’s hard for me to get out of that place so I tend to fight tooth and nail, on the way down, but once I reach that place… it’s just gonna take time.

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    • I also tend to keep quiet about how I’m really feeling. It seems easier to isolate myself than confront the situation that is bothering me in many cases. I see similarities between how you handle things and how I do. I appreciate your sharing this side of yourself with me.

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  2. I think you will succeed, not all at once, but in the way of growth. The imag come to mind of how a plant naturally grows toward the sun. Your awareness and goal of change is your sun to grow toward. When you need support, just ask. Its OK.

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  3. I’m really impressed that you’ve had these thoughts and that you’re seeking to improve in yourself what you find wanting.

    I hope I learn to develop that self-awareness. I tend to get snippy with people when I’m upset, and that’s definitely something I need to work on. I think my main emotional response to upset is shutdown, which is unhelpful all round. You’ve given me lots to think about.

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  4. Your words defined most of the things I go through in life. I grew up in a family that doesn’t share much words (although big in actions). But as an overthinking introvert, I thrive in deep conversations and I find it cathartic to release feelings to someone I trust. So I bottled up most thoughts and turned inward through emotions, mostly tears even in happy circumstances. Writing has eased some of those that I need to release but here are still some hurts that remains to be laid down and fear keeps me from doing so. It can be a challenge, but yes, trying to be assertive with feelings and about the things that we want is a good step to take. Thank you.

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    • I’m glad you connected with this piece 🙂 I know how you feel, clearly haha. Being assertive is hard but it can be very rewarding, it’s something I have to work on daily and it remains a challenge for me. Best wishes to you!

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