So much to be thankful for and such fleeting feelings of gratitude. I have everything I need in life and most of what I want, yet uncertainty fills my mind with unease and poisons positivity. Many days I find myself wandering around the house without direction or purpose. I feel confused and useless, it’s reminiscent of depression but I have to remind myself it’s NOT depression. There is a difference, though it can be hard to compartmentalize when all you have is time to mull it over and over and over again.
Without friends I’d be forever lost in the seas of my wandering mind. I don’t have many but I cherish those I do have and I worry that I don’t show that appreciation well. I am eternally grateful for these people, they help me navigate the ever-twisting and winding roads of my mental illness – both good and bad. They love me even on the worst of my days, they are my lighthouse with shining beacons of hope when I’m shrouded in darkness. I am astounded at their ability to withstand the storms when I’m sure everything’s been flooded and everyone has drowned, for there they are with warm dry towels waiting for me to surface.
I could talk about each of these friends and how much they mean to me, I could also tell you why but this would go on far longer than either of us has the energy for today! No, today I want to tell you about one of my special people. Our connection has grown tremendously in the past year and to be perfectly honest, I’m not sure it’s been a full year though it feels longer. She’s one of those people you meet and instantly connect with, just thinking of her brings a smile to my face!
We talk daily, thanks to this world between the wires, and share whatever is going on in our day-to-day. Sending silly photos and voice memos to make each other laugh. I never knew the joys of WhatsApp before she came into my life, never had the need for it. When one of us is down the other is always there waiting, listening, advising, consoling. There is never judgement, as there shouldn’t be between friends. We don’t always agree and that’s what makes our conversations rich, full of life and varying perspective. She often uses words I don’t know the meaning of which I adore for it broadens my horizons, and she does this in so many different ways. I’ve never known anyone more full of compassion and empathy for the world in which she lives, aware of things that I never realized were going on right in front of us all. You need only read her blog to know what I mean.
At least fifty – probably closer to eighty-five percent of what I publish crosses her screen before I ever consider pressing the publish button. Her editing skills are incredible, she sees things that I simply don’t see and when I’m stuck she unsticks me in only the way she can. I have never felt so much support by one person with my writing (and my life in general), she is always willing to help. It’s one of the reasons she’s my BlogSister ❤ She gets what I’m trying to say, she knows my heart’s song in a way that very few ever have. Ours is a connection that is rare and I really truly do cherish it so much.
Many of you reading this know the person I am speaking of. In fact, she is the creator of this here blog-hop! That’s right, my BlogSister and very special person is LIZZI!!! If you don’t know Lizzi now is a great time to get to know her! Start reading her blog, connect with her on Facebook and Twitter – you won’t regret it 🙂
All ten of my thankfuls are directed toward my one dear friend this week because she is ever-deserving and I’m quite sure I don’t properly show my appreciation often enough.
Lizzi, thank you for being a wonderful friend and mentor, it means the world to me!!
Wondering why this is TToT #13 & 14? Well, apparently I can’t count past 10. I was looking at my gratitude posts to see what number I was at and realized I have two #11’s!!! Go ahead, laugh at me – I sure did! In order to catch myself up, I’m using the Secret Book of Rules (or Book of Secret Rules) and squeezing 13 and 14 into this post 😉
Do you have a lot of friends or are you like me and have a few very close friends? Do you feel like you are good at showing your appreciation for your friends? What are you thankful for this week?
Feel free to join the blog hop and write your own post of thankfuls! Don’t forget to leave your thoughts in the comments, I’d love to hear from you!!!