This is my first time joining the blog hop Ten Things of Thankful, which was started by my good friend Lizzi over at Considerings | Life in Silver Linings. If you’re not familiar with Lizzi’s writing forget about reading the rest of this post and go indulge yourself, she’s amazing!!! Ok don’t totally forget about this post come back later or tomorrow, but seriously, this can wait.
I’m warning you now, this will not be my most eloquent piece of writing. This time of year is hard for me, for a lot of people who have mental health issues. Usually, writing is my release, but I have been struggling for the right words and keep ending up staring at this damn cursor blinking against a stark white screen. So without further ado…
- I am most thankful for my husband. He knew what he was getting himself into when we started dating, he has stood by my side through my absolute worst, luckily he’s also gotten to see me at my happiest. I have never felt more loved or accepted or safe than I do with him. I can confidently say that we love each other no matter what. I don’t think I could get through the madness in my mind without his hand firmly gripping mine every step of the way.
- Every now and then when you meet someone there’s that instant connection, you just click and could talk about anything right off. That’s how it was when Lizzi and I met! It was like we had known each other for years the way we could (and do) chat. I am super thankful that she came into my life and we were able to find such a strong connection.
- Writing, when the force is with me (so to speak), is a lifeline for me. Sometimes it’s the only air in a world full of smoke, it’s the only way I can see through the storm raging in my soul. I know I sound dramatic, but when my demons are in control I am quite literally fighting for my life. I am thankful to have an outlet for my pain and a way to connect with other people through its release.
- I am grateful that I have loving and supportive parents. Sometimes I can’t afford all of the doctors and medications that come with my diagnosis and my parents will help me pay for them. Actually, they have done that ever since I got my diagnosis. They’ve listened to my meltdowns and talked me through anxiety attacks. They have been my #1 fans and believers in me since the day I was born, as parents should be. I really could not ask for better parents.
- I have a beautiful niece and two very handsome nephews that I am thankful for. I met my niece 12 days after she was born and felt an instant connection with her, I’d like to think she felt it too. Her and I have built a very special relationship since they live within driving distance. My nephews live across the country unfortunately and I’ve only met them a few times. I try to keep up via social media and such, they are very smart and active boys!
- I am grateful to live by the ocean. The ocean is a place of calming comfort for me, the sounds and smells embrace me like a guiding hug from Mother Earth. Being near the ocean on the sand helps me find balance and get closer to my center, closer to where I belong.
- I am thankful to have a roof over my head, even if I’ve grown tired of this particular roof (more particularly the structure beneath the roof). Oh dear, that doesn’t sound very thankful, does it?
- I’m thankful to have clothes to wear, I even mostly like them!
- I am grateful to have food to eat, though less so on nights when it’s just rice and beans (not going to apologize for that being a little less grateful than it should be)
- And finally, I am thankful to have a job that I don’t hate. I’ll just leave it at that.
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