I need your help. I feel like it’s just getting worse. This overwhelming sadness, a feeling of hopelessness like it will never get better. I finally have a job I like and I’m terrified I will lose it due to an emotional breakdown. I’m scared that I need to go to the hospital.
- I don’t want to lose my job
- We can’t afford it
- I’m afraid to be away from my husband
- I’m terrified of being in the hospital again. Like, panic attack terrified.
Maybe I don’t need the hospital. It just seems like no matter what we do with the meds nothing is working. I feel like I am losing myself. I know this is so common, but I have no interest in any of my favorite things anymore. I’m wasting away. The darkness is swallowing me and the weight is suffocating. I don’t want it to take my life away, I don’t want to lose my job and owe the hospital five thousand dollars for stabilizing my meds. Please advise. ASAP.
I really sent this email to my psychiatrist tonight. #TheStruggleIsREAL